I have always liked to be in control, it’s really nothing new. Not being in control frightens me. It worries me. It makes me angry. Most of all, it makes me immeasurably impatient. Which is precisely what God tells us not to do. I consider myself a Christian, I pursue Christ daily, nonetheless I undoubtedly fall short on a regular basis. Which is okay because I am forgiven, but I wasn’t doing anything to change either. Suddenly, I realized that God is continually putting me in situations where I don’t have control, he is trying to teach me and, to put it mildly, and I am not handling it well.
“Then great multitudes came to Him, having with them the lame, blind, mute, maimed, and many others; and they laid them down at Jesus’ feet, and He healed them.” Matthew 15:30
We are told to lay all of our troubles at the feet of Jesus but somewhere along the way I had forgotten that. When I’m faced with trouble I pray fervently but I am a failure when it comes to laying it down at the feet of Christ. I never fully allow God to take control. I know he has my best interest at heart. I know all of the verses about not having worry, fear, anger, or anxiousness. BUT I DO IT ALL ANYWAYS!!! I do it all anyways because I AM IMPATIENT. I am so impatient and because we have free will God lets me take over until I am ready to fully give the reigns over to him. How easy it would be to just ask God to take care of it and go on about our daily lives!!! Instead I fight God for control. It seems so silly when I stop to think about it “I legitimately fight God for control.” In Matthew 6:26 we are told:
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?”
How wonderful is it to know that the King of Kings cares for us and watches over us daily? I have found that I need God continually from the time I wake up in the morning to when I lay down at night. I continually struggle to allow God full control of every situation. I continually struggle with patience, but I am reminding myself to lay it all at His feet.
“God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation” James 1:12
I can stress but my God is the only one who can lift me up. I will patiently wait (or at least work on being patient) on a the Father whose knowledge is significantly greater than my own.
Just a few helpful verses:
“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28